Seek Within

There’s something humbling, enlightening, personally special about traveling — especially adventuring alone. I’ve tried to pinpoint the reason it is this way, but it still eludes me. I can’t put my finger on it, but I can sketch the ideas that surround it.

Traveling is healing. Mentally, you are pursuing a desire to discover, and essentially you are indulging in a luxury. To travel and follow a craving to explore, you are testing yourself. I think the feeling of need to adventure on your own stems from a subconscious achievement of readiness. You are ready to physically set about. You are psychologically prepared to seek what’s mostly unknown. You are responsible in the commencement of your travel, yet you are heavily resistant to deterrents. It just feels right, and you are determined to follow through because you know you want this feeling of accomplishment. It’s this that heals you.

Heals you from what? Heals you from losing yourself — heals you from all the days you failed to recognize your next step in life — all the days you don’t enrich who you are and push for what you want from yourself.

This solo trip to Grants Pass — easily dismissed as just a hangout with friends. But I look at it as more. I feel like I’m just testing the waters. I’m indulging in this personal adventure to acknowledge readiness for the next phase… And this phase is my internship abroad. I hope it works out, but I have a higher preferred option that could possibly keep me nested happily at the Hallie Ford Center. It’s nice to be developing not just one plan, but two solid options.

I have heard from many people. They say if you have the opportunity to travel — take it, for you might not get another chance. I pass this on to you now.

This road trip I’ve taken… Now I want more. It kind of makes me long for summer break to start over again — maybe do things differently. Maybe a drive to California (scary driving!) or just take myself somewhere. But, then again, if we always dream of doing things over, we’ll forget to live the dreams yet to come. Let’s move forward.

The Connection

Possibilities are growing more visible, and so is my excitement. I have thought that my only path to interning abroad was a list of opportunities on some website. But, just like in other life applications, I’ve come to step back and re-imagine things.

Thanks to a conversation with a nice visitor at the Hallie Ford Center, I have realized that I should look into creating my own bridge to success. Why follow an internship option that so many others may participate in? Rather, I should strive to make my own way. I need to sit down and write what I want from an internship. Where do I really want to go and what do I want to do? I create a solid list of interests and desires and I take it to the experts and I say, “This is what I want. Can we make it work, and what are my next steps?”

College is fantastic. You’ve got advisors that know your academic path and what you need to do to accomplish it. You’ve got someone to aid you from the beginning to the end. But let’s push the envelope… Let’s build our own bridge — a unique one with just your name on it. And let it be that special, personal connection between what is the general pool of education, and the actual applied field that holds your passion.

I’m ready to make my own way. I’m ready to pull my resources together and see what I can construct. I have the university, Hallie Ford Center, a knowledgeable, helpful supervisor, and a slew of faculty core directors. There are opportunities awaiting creation, and I’m on my way to bringing them into actuality. Next week, my supervisor and I are sitting down and having coffee to “talk about my future”. I don’t know if this is in regards to work during the school year… Or something more. I think I’ll make it more — and I’ll have some research and notes together for when we meet.

The adventure begins.

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In the Community of Jabal Natheef

I have been researching international internship opportunities for autumn 2012. One possibility that captures my interest is centered in Amman, Jordan, working with the under-developed community of Jabal Natheef. I would be an intern with Ruwwad, a community empowerment organization founded in 2005. Ruwwad works with partnerships in the private sector, civil society, government, and target communities of Jordan to address the critical needs of youth in densely populated East Amman. With a community population size of about 50,000, children and adults of Jabal Natheef are in need of help in the areas of health, safety, decent living, education, employment, and legal aid.

There are numerous ways I can help in Amman. I would work to improve literacy in children, inspire personal creativity and expression, and tutor those that need extracurricular help outside of the classroom. Another volunteer opportunity could be of an immersion experience within Jabal Natheef, working directly with the community through social services and the community help desk to aid families in need, revamp homes and shelters, and staff daily services. I may also mentor children in information technology literacy, working with computers and the internet to help flourish their educational experience.

Ruwwad has a mesh of networked community services. There are other areas of aid I may have the opportunity to look into, but one thing true about Ruwwad is that it fits my niche and passion — health and human services.

Heading

As some of you know, I am particularly interested in traveling abroad. I originally had considered studying outside of the United States, but after an advising appointment today, I got an even better idea… International internship. There are little or no health and human social work internship opportunities available in Australia. This was my preferred destination of travel, but standing back I realize that I am excited about just being abroad in general — not just the bedazzlement of Oceania. There are many other options I am able to choose from and each I do find quite interesting. I look forward to researching them all and posting my favorites soon!

Spare Some Change

The past 2 years have fostered so many beautiful, unforgettable changes in my life. I am thankful for the strength and support I have encountered along the way. In these 21 months, I have taken the image of who I want to be and have done my best to sculpt it into reality. There are some odds and ends, but they will resolve in time.

In the past couple of days something new and inspirational has harvested. I was daydreaming in the shower, like I usually do, when a provocative tagline came to the tip of my tongue.

Spare some change.

You may think of a street dweller asking for money — but dig a little deeper and you’ll find the meaning. We need to open up a little more to the idea of change. I sometimes believe we hang on to “the daily grind” because we fear what we cannot change. We are afraid in the things we cannot control or the fate we may face in time. But right now… Right now it wouldn’t do too much harm if we could just spare some change in our lives. Stop worrying, and start planning. Maybe this means you loosen up, or maybe this means you get down to business.

Why should we fear change? Every decision we make in our daily lives should be working towards a better, sustainable tomorrow. If we are afraid of tomorrow then we are not doing enough today to ensure our comfort, confidence, and success. We have such a large say in what tomorrow will look like. Like our physical health, we can take control and succeed because we are at the helm of control.

I have embarked on a fourth phase in my life. I am thrilled to be recently employed with Oregon State University as the only student assistant at The Hallie Ford Center. We moved into the brand new building last week and it’s not just a fresh start for the healthy children and family programs but for me as well. It’s an all new stage in my life and it feels incredibly invigorating to be working and engaging with others in the variety of ever-changing tasks I perform. I like going to work and I embrace the challenges I am dealt.

But I am also excited to be forecasting for a fifth phase of change to come in time. I enjoy my public health academic major and I am eager to see myself in a dedicated career. I am still uncertain about a primary focus, however. I am not sure Health Management and Policy is something I am cut out for. It feels extremely over my head right now and each term I just face a queue of more predestined classes. I’ve been sort of fishing for some inspiration, and while working at The Hallie Ford Center has already proven to be a great start, I’ve actually been acutely interested in taking my studies abroad.

Deakin University in Melbourne, Australia is on my front page. I am at the drawing board laying out blueprints for achievement and success. The schematics require some focus and extensive planning, but I really think it’s worth it — and thinking, reading, and researching about studying abroad fires me up and I get very excited. It feels right. I think I need to do this… I need to do it for myself. I can’t let it pass me by.

Studying abroad is normally seen in college sophomores and juniors… But I’m going to be a senior. I’ve thought about this and I’ve felt that my opportunity has been passed up. But then I think about what people have told me… College is your chance to explore and make your own way. Why do I have to follow the same path everyone takes? I already know I won’t be graduating the end of my senior year due to a late switch to public health and a reevaluated approach to the classes I’m taking. This has been somewhat discouraging, but I am living my own adventure so let’s live it up!

Some people get “senioritis”, an uncontrollable eagerness to finish school and graduate. But I’m experiencing the opposite. I’m on what seems like the last leg of college and I’m not ready for it to be done. I feel like I haven’t experienced all there is to be had. I’ve gone three years with the same routine of forecasting and attending classes. It feels a little stagnant, though. Studying abroad is not just a temporary fad I have. It’s a revelation that I need to act upon. During these last three years I have witnessed so many people travel to other countries as part of school, They post beautiful pictures and tell of engrossing stories. I have longed to be in their shoes — to sit in that classroom, to see the scenes, to meet the people, to truly live that dream. I will not get another chance if I don’t do it today.

I believe studying abroad at Deakin University is right for me because it is an outstanding opportunity to thrive. Life in Melbourne will be a fun and an academically enriching experience. I will enroll in a span of human development and family science courses taught by Australian education professors. I will meet new people, have incredible experiences in new activities, and explore an urban paradise. This is what I’ve always wanted. I want it so bad and I am ready to work for it. I am more than ready to spare some change.

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Maui 2010: The Other Memories

Well… I meant to blog throughout our vacation, but my real only source of easy blogging sort of failed on me. My iPad decided to stop working and I was unable to use it past the day I last blogged. And now that I’ve been home for a week, I have felt lethargic when it comes to filling in the rest of our trip. I will breeze over it.

One of the major excursions we did was take surfing lessons. My dad and I signed up for semi private instructing. This allowed us to both share one teacher — which was a very good thing because the other groups had about six people sharing an instructor, meaning your time out to catch a wave or two was limited by waiting in line basically. My dad went out a couple times but because too exhausted from the amount of work involved in the sport. He bowed out and it ended up being just a one-on-one surfing course. Exciting!

Fortunately, the actual surfing was not tiring for me — but the real issues I was having had to do with keeping myself up on the board. It became more of a mental challenge. You’ve got to know you have control of your balance on the board. It feels like you’re going to tip one direction — and thus you want to jump off the board to hypothetically avoid falling. But, if you just put a little strength in your legs and really fight that urge to tip over, it’s pretty easy to stay on the board granted you have the footing right. It was unfortunate, though, that I finally figured this mental factor out as I went for my last two waves. During this last run in I did my best, getting up on the board quickly, and on the second wave in I rode it all the way to the beach.

But I encountered some injuries I didn’t even really think about. I nearly blew out my knee on the second wave of the entire instruction course as I fell off the board into the water and slammed my knee into a rock. I had a small cut, but I didn’t find out until well after we were back on land and having lunch that my knee was well bruised and swelling up. Fortunately, it healed quite rapidly and I actually was back to running the next day. I also got a bruise on my heel, an abrasion on the side of my foot, sore ribs from hitting the surfboard, and weird neuralgia on my hands from the slip-resistant coating on the board. However, the pros of surfing well outweighed the injuries, and I’d be very happy to try it again.

Sunday, July 25, was my mom’s birthday. We had a great day driving around upcountry Maui throughout the day, and that evening we enjoyed The Feast at Lele, the same luau we attended seven years ago.

The following morning my dad and I went on a Blue Hawaii helicopter tour of Maui. It was a nice view from the sky, but some was left to be desired as it was not fully a “full island tour” like stated. Likewise, I enjoyed it greatly.

The last Thursday we took a ferry from Lahaina to Lanai. This was an approximately 30-minute trip across the water. We were a bit skeptical of what Lanai might have to offer us. We asked various people what there is to do there and most of them said “nothing”. We decided to go anyway because we realized that we would be disappointed if we had not checked it out ourselves. So, we went to Lanai a took a short bus ride to Lanai City. I’ll tell you there is nothing to do there. It was still quite early in the morning so we were hungry for some sort of breakfast. We chose a sort of shack-like place called Canoes. I’ll tell you again that I have no clue what the motivation of that area is. Their building and other buildings around are about to fall down. We sat in fold-out chairs at plastic tables. There were holes in the walls and operations seemed suspicious and not up to par with health department regulations. Creamer for coffee was evaporated milk. My mom’s crepes seemed to have been pre-frozen. My dad’s hamburger in his “Loco Moco” was strangely soft or mushy but seemingly cooked. My mom had minor “after-effects” later that day. To top it off, this rundown building was ironically garnished with an approximate 60-inch flat-screen television with high definition programming. It seems this is quite the incentive to bring locals into the shop for a bite to eat. You are advised.

So… We were worried that we just made this costly ferry trip to Lanai and now there’s absolutely nothing here to do. We ended up catching the bus back down the hill to the first Four Seasons Hotel next to the beach (there are two of them on the island and they are the only two you can stay at besides a much more “quaint” Hotel Lanai). This Four Seasons Hotel was beautiful!  Their pool area was so picturesque. As per Hawaii regulations, the public must be granted access to all beaches. We found the path down to the sandy oceanside — and boy was I very happy to see such a nice sight. It was a large, fine-sand beach. My mom wasn’t too content with how big the crashing waves were. Despite the entire coastline into the water being 100-percent sandy and soft, it was a quick drop off, causing huge tubular waves to slam onto the shore. I thought it was incredibly fun. I had my goggles and found great entertainment in diving blow the surface as the wave would break. The fun lasted hours. However, after tiring my body out, I fell asleep face down on the beach — subsequently earning myself a bright red, sort of strawberries-and-creme sunburn line on my legs where my boardshorts ended. It was like pasty white upper thigh color (or lack of) came to a halt to the glowing pinkish burn. And it hurt that evening. Fortunately there’s something called Aloe Vera that, applied numerous times, soothed the burn and damage quickly.

There’s so much that we did, so many places we ate at, so many stores and locations we visited. I can’t write it all. I can only suggest you take an adventure of your own to Maui sometime and discover the fun and relaxation for yourself. Cheers!